Early Drama

"you gotta get it right while you got the time. cause when you close your heart, then you close your mind." - Man In The Mirror, Michael Jackson

Hi, guys! Merry christmas and Happy new year 2013! I know I'm a lil bit late to say it but some people said, better late than never. actually I wasn't late, I gave you some piece of mind, I am starting to write story again. inspired by fanfiction.net yes, I am that a-dork-able. maybe I'm bit lost in lots of thoughts that I want to put in the right words. the old me was being able to put a lot emotions in some sense of words. but the present me literally having a hard time to put in to the right words. at least, I am trying again now :)

soooo whats new with real life? well well, i had -still- been in such a drama life. oh my gosh,

since I don't have the guts to tell the real world about how I feel, or maybe some people are busy lost in their track, I'm gonna write it down. so, do you remember when I had my breakdown moment when my first year in college i was surrounded by people, let say, only care about their self. well, i wasn't aware if my life would be such a tragic story. when I gave people my best, what I have was nothing but brokenhearted. I am sensitive person but lets face it, at high school i have the best people in my life, being together through the dramas life, we had our ups and our downs, and in short time, 3 years, we are apart by distance and time. how couldn't i be a sensitive person when i one surrounded by a best people? we care about each other, we help each other, there was no "Me" there are "Us". God, this is such a place where you could get many "Me" in every corner. am I a bit hyperbolic? collage year is nothing worse than individual world. so i have to survive by myself, once, twice, and my times getting hurt and I had to go on, I have to. My parents money weren't made for my drama life. I have one thing in my head that time, i have to get out from this place soon. the sooner is better.

but at times, i was starting for believing if these people could change, but i was wrong. i just had those moments where all you did was giving your best but in other people eyes, you have done nothing but trouble. oh my god, have a heart. why should be such an ass? and you start to manipulate people about other person's flaws? THAT. IS. SO. NOT. COOL. GUYS. you could make your, who you called friend, have a miserable life with just being around you. really not cool. oh you see, this isn't my story, it's my friend's. and the people who talk like they are the perfection, flawless person, are start to blame other people. oh I just like living in Upper East Side. it's better in there when the Upper East Siders still have a pretty face or good money or good musics though.

haaaah when it comes to the hard situations, I hope times could get things fixed. at least the person won't have a miserable life in here. have friend in here somehow makes me scared, what if they turn their back when you were at your worst? what if they revealed your deepest secret when you are not close with them anymore? just like Gossip Girl says, when it comes to Upper East Side, TRUST. NO. ONE. I am done 100% with this place since the freshman year and now I am really done 200%. but I am survive, guys. I have my best-est friends with me, although we didn't see each other that much but we keep in touch, always. and I have my family that will never abandon me and leave me suffer through the pain. and I have tumblr, my sweet escape where I can be a lil bit more myself and I have you guys! so thank you for being a good reader :) love you xx