Things I wish I wrote

“You’re scared of the way I make you feel because you don’t want to feel anything.”

“Feeling intoxicated with happiness purely by of the existence another human being is the most beautiful experience.”

"Don't read too deeply into the things I say. You might drown."

“So I really am part of something here?” "Of course you belong here. This is your world,” said the Sheep Man.

“If you love deeply, you’re going to get hurt badly. But it’s still worth it.” — C.S. Lewis
"There were two ways to be happy: improve your reality, or lower your expectations."
A love affair with what ifs, long odds, and probabilities.
She is broken yet mesmerizing like all the beautiful stars are pieces of something more grand.
“I love you in a language that I don’t fully understand. In words that I haven’t found enough courage to forklift out of my chest.”
I may disappoint you with my answer.
“You can ask the universe for all the signs you want, but ultimately, we see what we want to see when we’re ready to see it.”

Tragedi adalah tidak merasa antusias dalam segala hal yang terjadi. Zombie.

“I’ll never ask you
to be anything otherthan exactly you.”
about her,
was that she
wasn't your ordinary
woman. she was tea
on somedays
and hennessy on others.
Did I ever love you
Did I ever need you
Did I ever fight you
Did I ever want to Did I ever leave you
Across the old table
Was I ever able
Or are we still leaning
And is it still raining
Was it ever settled Was it ever over
Was I ever someone
Back in November The lemon trees blossom
The almond trees whither
Who could love you forever
You don't need to answer
Did I ever love you
Does it really matter
Did I ever fight you Did I ever leave you
Across the old table
Was I ever able
And are we still leaning

“i want you around me a lot buti don’t want you so much around me that youget tired of me.”

You found me
broken
surrounded by
my own dark
wasted
like a dim light
But you touched me
like I'd be something
worth
seeing
keeping
&to love
of love, but
no one is
loving the other.

I am a very private person, yet I am an open book.

If you don’t ask…I won’t tell.

just a piece
from your whole
a silent moment
among the wreckage
of Ur Soul
Let me unfold Ur dark
&crawl into Ur heart~
i am definitely
a dandelion.
a weed, a something
not valued
by the masses
but by those who
see uniquely what is
sacred and gold.
It's worth waiting
A thousand lifetimes
For somebody like you
fall in love
as easy as how
you like to make it seem
I want to love
I really do
but I'm still
incapable
of any feelings

"Believe me, I want to fall in love with you too."

I'd like to think of you
as a short blessing
I know you'll be gone
one day,
like everyone else
but for now
while you're still here

I'm glad
can end a sorrow as easily
as he can invent a pleasure

When you are noise, I will be silence. When you are fear, I will be courage, but whatever you are, you will be loved.
You always know how to find me amongst the crowds inside my head.
I’ve built a wall around me, never letting anybody inside and trying not to venture outside myself.
Who could like somebody like that?
Note to self: Stop masking the love you have with indifference. Pretending you don't have a heart doesn't help heal it.
“They told me to pour my heart into everything I do. So thats what I did, I poured and poured and poured. Now they ask me why I’m so empty.”
“Happiness is contagious, especially when you’re the one causing it. Spread happiness, and you will find happiness in you.”
"I KNOW EXACTLY HOW MANY GEARS I'M GOING TO NEED TO LOVE YOU WELL"

"I was wondering why it's so hard for me to fall for anybodyand then,I met you againand suddenlyit all makes sense"

"I tend to give up easily when I feel insecure."
am i unique or am i just another cliche
The way she fell in love made getting destroyed look completely worth it.
"Every day is a struggle. I am constantly on edge, going back and forth between caring too much and not caring at all."
Take care of your parents wholeheartedly in their twilight years the way they cared for you when you were young.
“Some of us are so terribly broken.”
i'm not kidding when i say that there is something wrong with me but sometimes i feel like maybe it's just fear of living
It can be hard to wait for the flow to start. But when you have to wait, you have to wait.
The point is, not to resist the flow. When there’s no flow, stay still. If you resist the flow, everything dries up.
In your own way, you’re out there fighting as hard as you can, even if other people can’t tell by looking at you.
You always look so cool, like no matter what happens, it’s got nothing to do with you, but you’re not really like that.
if i had a dollar for every time i thought about you, i would start thinking about you.
They don’t know how to express exactly what they feel, so they say and do the exact opposite.
sometimes you just need to distance yourself to see things more clearly
Ben: Wanna know why I've been avoiding you? I see that look in your eye, and I know exactly what it means... But I don't wanna be with you.
Of course I have a few things wrong with me, but those are problems I keep inside. I’d hate to think they were obvious to anybody else.
do u ever feel like your brain is gonna explode because you're so stressed out
we only have what we remember
i should've never told you i loved you, not because it wasn't true, but because it was so real you didn't want it
“Your days are numbered. Use them to throw open the windows of your soul to the sun. If you do not, the sun will soon set, and you with it.”
"When I saw you, I finally saw the character I created in my writing come to life."
i love taking care of other people but i have no interest in taking care of myself do u see the problem here
this recovery process is just exhausting. i'm not at rock bottom but i'm not okay either and it's so hard to be in limbo between the two.
If you don't know what you're looking for, it's not easy to look for it.
taking a chance on you and ignoring the fact that I've always been bad at gambling
i really loved you, didn't i?

To keep in mind: You only see what I choose to show you.

i have to push people away because i don't want to hurt them. even if i stay alone forever, at least nobody gets hurt

What's courage without your chest feeling as if it'll collapse any moment?
That a person can, just by living, damage another human being beyond repair.
But I didn’t understand then. That I could hurt somebody so badly she would never recover.
Here she is, all mine, trying her best to give me all she can. How could I ever hurt her?
On those days i carelessly raised my voice at my parents. I hope they know I'm sorry and i love them whole heartedly”
Nate: What are Blair and Serena fighting about this time? Chuck: Basically about how each one loves the other more than the other loves her.
Now i understand why people who are sad stay sad because ive tried to be happy and all i felt is nothing
She's the type to break your heart then apologise for being so fucked up

“You were all the days I spent trying to fix myself. You were all the nights I wrecked myself, too.”

I hope when you see my name you feel sick with regret
"don't comprise yourself, you're all you've got."
“There’s nothing like deep breaths after laughing that hard. Nothing in the world like a sore stomach for the right reasons.”
After something happens to you, you either over dramatize it or underplay it. At any rate, you never write it quite the way you want.
my head is a pocket with a hole and the thoughts i pick up are skipping stones
run far away from anyone who makes you feel anything ever
Solve your problems while they are small & manageable, do not let them grow bigger than your capacity to conquer them.
having feelings for you is like being locked in the dark while getting told to "look on the bright side"
When I first met you I felt a kind of contradiction in you. You're seeking something but at the same time running away for all you're worth.
i don't want any other girl to taste your love, to feel what i'm feeling, to know how amazing you are, i don't want anyone to take my place.
my life's messy. i like messy, spontaneity, and unplanned. perfect was never the plan.

Note to self — Always be kinder than you feel.

Life isn't to be rushed.
he's an enigma i want to spend my entire life trying to understand
that scares me too, but is calming at the same time, in a way.
a lot of the things coming in the future scare me but then i remember in approx. 75 years i'll just become a part of the earth again
I wanna love you so hard you forget the meaning of the word empty.
I catch myself hoping you're happy. A true masochist, I always mean it.
What is coming, is better than what is gone.
“We’re all so desperate to be understood, we forget to be understanding.”
I feel pathetic because I'm starting to like a guy. I just have to tell myself to keep my distance.
I've fallen in love with thoughts, with ideas, with personifications—with one's inherent beauty, blooming day by day.
you just don't get it. you're so beautiful that you even make trees blush, people say its autumn because they had to call it something
(just the thought of you brings warmth to my cheeks and a smile to my face)
Remember when he treated you like a drug he was only brave enough to take in small doses? You deserve someone who wants to die. I have my own fucking problems to deal with I don't sit there waiting for you to message me asking for help.
“I don't broadcast every high and I don't hide every low. I'm trying to live. I'm not trying to convince the world I have life.”
“I hope you make the best of it. And I hope you see things that startle you. I hope you feel things you never felt before.”
i'm literally petrified of how happy I am right now because I know it won't last forever
When you start seeing your own worth, you’ll find it harder to stay around people who don’t. I need something to live for,
To make me feel like my life isn't completely and utterly pointless
“How do I learn to fall in love again when all of my scars only remind me of the times no one was there to catch me?”
not knowing what you want and ignoring what you want because it's terrifying are two very different things but I will always confuse them
the calm during the storm
"maybe forgiveness is just the continual pushing aside of bitter memories, until time dulls the hurt & the anger, & the wrong is forgotten."
“Softness is not weakness. It takes courage to stay delicate in a world this cruel.” —Beau Taplin
"I believe we all have a handful of soulmates. The most important thing to me is someone who makes me laugh." - Chace Crawford Love is always questioning or inflating or disappearing or denying or hurting. And the thing is, you can't do anything about it.
“The song is over. But the melody lingers on.”

She deserves the ocean and honey you were just a puddle.

Systematic error 404: The part of your brain that controls speech suddenly stops when he says he loved you all along.

your voice is every crack in the sidewalk that makes me question life itself
“But, I truly think that when you do what you love, everything becomes worth it...”
'my hands are blistered from holding on too tight to things begging to leave'
everybody is sad at night and maybe that's why we're supposed to be asleep, maybe it keeps the sadness at bay.
"Thinking too well of people often allows them to be better than they otherwise would." - Nelson Mandela
Fall in love with one who teaches you to live out loud after the world has silenced you.
admitting to yourself that you're in love with them like it's more of a self diagnosis than an emotion
"She had enough talent to make her way through the limited world where she lived, but not enough to go out into the wider world."
"Still, it was sad to see what used to be so fundamental to our lives fade away, and disappear."
"never love anyone who treats you like you're ordinary" CANCER: stop pushing your limits just to know you're alive. your breath is proof enough, you don't need to bleed and starve just to feel.

And maybe for once,just once,someone please tell mesomething encouraging.I'm so tired of trying,and I don't even knowif it's worth it.

do you ever just crave someone’s presence? like you would literally be happy just sitting next to them & it could be completely silent.
"may your joys be as deep as the ocean and your sorrows as light as its foam."
"And if he wants to leave, then let him leave. You are terrifying, and strange, and beautiful. Something not everyone knows how to love.”
I know the time was wrong but the love was so right.

share a six word story: Don't you know? All love dies.

Tonight I want to talk to youBinding you with my wordsUntil you can no longerBear the pressureUntil your heart explodesUnder the weight

She said she loved nature's beauty, but I told her she was everything Mother Nature wishes she could be
I may be a flirt, but when I love, I love hard and I wish I didn't do that

he was all

the poetry i write

while i was all

the books he never read

You're the only person I could ever write poems about. I think it's because we fell in love so hard, and fell out even harder.
When you get hurt, your initial reaction is to retreat. To take a step back and avoid the thing that caused you pain.
Death had tried to find a home in me but packed his bags after breaking my ribs trying to tuck his knees in
cancer: he left her with roses, a ring, but not a goodbye and she just couldn't ever find the strength to forgive him

Waking up in the middle of a play, you’re on stage, but no one bothered to give you the script. "I'm writing by a lamp, but you should know, I used to write by the sun." // march 19 You ask me to write you a poem, I paint you an empty ocean, you run away.
You ask me who I am, I pen you a broken sky, you weep in the rain. you're not in love until you understand that sleeping and dreaming do not come hand and hand

her eyes they shine so bright

oh how i want to save that light

my sister says my smile reminds her of summer & points out that I'm leaving behind a trail of butterflies.. she calls it "catching feelings"
“I’d say you’re worth falling in love with twice.”
I trace my fingers along the patterns of your back and if ever there was a moment to freeze time, god, this would be it. This would be it.
no matter what, I believe there is always at least one absolutely beautiful thing about a person
every flower must grow through dirt
my least favorite word is love because it has too many meanings and not enough people who stay
“i noticed myself wishing that nothing loved me so i wouldn't feel obligated to keep existing”
laced my love with stardust because i thought you needed space

life is hard

harder if you're not beautiful

"I can't stop thinking about you and I""I've been there too a few times"

Angels are sometimes disguised as good friends.
that moment when u finish reading an incredible book and u just sit there for a while grinning wildly and staring lovingly at the cover

Find me now. Before someone else does.

Still, being able to feel pain was good, she thought. It’s when you can’t even feel pain anymore that you're in real trouble.
“I'm so afraid of losing something I love that I refuse to love anything”

types of girls: she makes you wonder why the sky isn't the color of her eyes or why the rain doesn't feel like her touch

what i liked

"If I let you in, you’ll just want out."

If you look at things from a distance, most anything looks beautiful.
"We may not be meant for each other, but I know that you're worth the try"
It was one of those days, when one thing goes wrong and then everything goes with it.

"She's standing in the heart of darknessSaying I know you got a soul even though you're heartless""How could any woman in the right mind be so blind to find something to saveInstead of walking with me she should have walked away"

Why do you always complicate things that are really quite simple? –Mary Poppins
i cant even play hard to get i'm already hard to want
“The ones who faced pain head-on made it out quicker than the ones who pretended they were okay.”—T.S.

Never had I feasted my eyes on such a beauty. Beauty of a variety I’d never imagined existed.
It's a shame you aren't standing in front of me. I could gently raise your chin, look into those eyes & kiss your cares into oblivion.
That’s gotta be one of the principles behind reality. Accepting things that are hard to comprehend and leaving them that way.
If your ideas are bigger than the town you’re in, you’ve got to get out of there
when you're a nobody and you want to love somebody: a biography
my feelings are an ocean, ebbing and flowing between too much and not at all
my dad asked me, "what's the worst pain you've ever had?" and before i realized she meant only physical, i said you leaving and i'm sorry
But it’s not too late to recover. You’re young, you’re tough. You’re adaptable. You can patch up your wounds, lift up your head and move on.
What happens when people open their hearts? They get better.

In the end they always left. They came, seeking something, but either they couldn’t find it, or were unhappy with what they found.
everyone is so full

“The ones who faced pain head-on made it out quicker than the ones who pretended they were okay.” —T.S.
“I’ve survived a lot of things, and I’ll probably survive this.” —J.D. Salinger
Serena: You act like you're in this movie about your perfect life. Then I have to remind you the only one watching that movie is you. #gg
To my father: You carried a battlefield inside your chest, but had no real wars to fight.
"You can have love all around you without being in love." -@taylorswift13
"How about coffee, drinks, dinner, a movie, for as long as we both shall live?" -Joe Fox
"I don't like getting attached to things if I know they won't last."
I didn't ask too much

We are lost and we don’t know which way we should go. But this is a very natural thing, a very healthy thing.
Here comes the unstableness you thought you could handle.
When you care less, you're happier.
caring about you is a sin to my sanity
The problem with giving is that when you stop, they'll have no shame in asking anymore.
One day, someone will walk into your life and make you see why it never worked out with anyone else.
To forgive is the highest, most beautiful form of love. In return, you will receive untold peace and happiness.
My heart wants roots, my mind wants wings
I felt a fierce and wordless tug-of-war going on inside me, a contest in which my mind was slowly dragging my body into its own territory.
I've decided that being who I am because of things I love, find joy in and am passionate about is a lot more important than anything else.
I wish I could
I felt my lungs inflate with the onrush of scenery - air, mountains, trees, people. I thought, “this is what it is to be happy."
I'm that type of friend that if they need to talk, i'm down to drive to their house, sit in their car and just talk about life.
I'm at peace and at war with my mind all at the same time.
“never get too attached to anyone unless they also feel the same towards you, because one sided expectations can mentally destroy you”
I'll be good to you. Not because I'm afraid of losing you, though in truth I am, but because don't even know how else to be.
“Love is giving her wings and teaching her to fly; setting her free but waking to her song each and every morning.”
“She gave happiness she didn’t own”
"Hari tidak bisa diulang, tapi pagi selalu menawarkan hal baru"
"... but he who is not afraid of my darkness will find banks full of roses, under my cypresses" - Nietzsche

the long term effects of loving for such a short time
Life is always tough and it doesn't get easier. It's how we handle it. It can be difficult or it can be easy. It depends on our perception.
you are my personal miracle.

a man who is master of himself

To get something important, people have to pay a price. That’s the rule the world operates by.
angels are all the versions of you god decided to keep for himself.
I think I might always be in some kind of love with you
"Surround yourself with people who are better than you."
I want to lie in your arms and then lie to your face when you ask if this could be something more.
"How could I be disappointed? We are all human, we all have problems and flaws and nightmares and fears."
"If you wish to keep me at arms length, just know that I was never afraid to get to know the real you. I welcomed it."

my sincere apologies to those i hurt while i was hurting
I felt a kind of contradiction in you. You’re seeking something, but at the same time, you are running away for all you’re worth.
I just need someone who won’t give up when loving me gets hard
"You're at your happiest in places like coffee shops and cafés: surrounded by people, but still closed off and keeping to yourself."
With each passing moment I’m becoming part of the past. There is no future, just the past steadily accumulating.
What lasts, lasts; what doesn't, doesn't. Time solves most things. And what time can't solve, you have to solve yourself.
I always find myself comforting people with the words I want to hear.
I get drunk on dreams and choke on real life.
I think one of my favorite feelings is laughing with someone and realizing half way through how much u enjoy them and their existence

“I can’t stand people who do not take food seriously.” - Oscar Wilde

"Sometimes an artist is broken in a way that fixes other people."
it's really hard to let go someone i love but then i realized it's harder to see myself constantly breaking so i better let go
"The heart of a sensitive person suffers too much to love"

Humans achieve their peak in different ways. But whoever you are, once you’re over the summit, it’s downhill all the way.
And the worst of it is, you never know where that peak is. No one can tell.
And what about me? My peak? Would I even have one?
Life is a lot more fragile than we think. So you should treat others in a way that leaves no regrets. Fairly, and if possible, sincerely.

For her, loneliness is something you have others remove for you.
You took all the feelings I could ever have for anyone else.
i hope she falls for me cause i know she's a catch
you're so beautiful you even make sunsets wish they could sit in a park and watch you every evening
how many people have you hurt just because you couldn't love them
i want to touch you in all the places no one has ever touched and hold your hands in all the ways you've never let them be held
i want to love you in all the ways you never knew you could be loved and show you how good two people can look between a set of sheets
i want to treat you the way you should have been treated before and let you know what a blessing you are to this world
too many people spend their lives feeling lonely and unloved and i just want to make everyone see how special they are damnit

“There is nothing in a caterpillar that tells you it's going to be a butterfly.” ― Buckminster Fuller
Autumn finally arrived. And when it did, I came to a decision. Something had to give: I couldn’t keep on living like this.
Drapetomania (n.) An overwhelming urge to run away
there are plenty of feelings just not enough room in my body for all of them
They hurt people that way, for no reason at all, and they hurt themselves too.

"Henceforth I will be yours, yours with truth, sincerity, and unreserve."
“Choose to be kind over being right and you'll be right everytime.” ― Richard Carlson

You are not alone, I am here with you, and though you're far away.. I am here to stay...

I'm beginning to think that you don't find happiness from living your life looking ahead or back..that you find it when you look around.
My laptop died out on me as I was diligently looking for Red Velvet's photos. Can't handle perfection.