i can't breathe.

I should be studying right now. but too much going on in my life and in my head. i can't see straight. I get involved in some kind of drama, that wasn't even mine. at this point, i should talk with someone, who knows me, who i trusted, who i can count on. but everybody has much things going on in their own lives. what should i do. i feel like i'm crying but i can't. i feel like i want to ripped someone's head off but sure i won't. i feel like so pissed with myself. if i could hurt anyone, that would be me. but i can't bring the idea of hurting myself physically. although i'm messed up inside. i screwed up big time. and i feel like i need some space from everybody but i do need people to surround me and make me feels good and safe and comfortable.

here's to never growing up

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“You are not weak just because your heart feels so heavy.”

—	Andrea Gibson “Holding on to anything is like holding on to your breath. You will suffocate. The only way to get anything in the physical universe is by letting go of it. Let go and it will be yours forever.” —  Deepak Chopra

i can't breathe.