"People don't change, they just become a clearer version of who they really are" - Unknown
maybe the quotes above was right. I wasn't changing who I really am. maybe you just don't know me that well. yes I have ears to your problems, yes I have heart to help you out of your problems but at same point, I'm tired being your jokes object. your sarcastic comments. your self centered side. at first I think I could handle it but days have passed and the truth is I don't really enjoy it. I was uncomfortable, especially at that time, you were hurting me bad. and I couldn't speak out my feelings. at the end of the day, i was replaying again what just happened with me that day. was your truth about me is worth my pain? did I really have to know it? sure my best friends know my flaws but they never point that at me directly. i know the truth is hurts but sometimes people need the supportive action more than the-truth-is-situation. you said you were sorry and i'm learning to forgive and forget. but it's never really that simple. you know what happened with me from last semester, a friend did hurt me too. and i got that trust issues i'm still working on. I wish you could be more supportive, i wish you considered other people's feelings, i wish i wasn't sensitive person but I've been holding back this feeling for too long and here we are. and i wish second chances are not rare. i wish i could always see the best from people but i'm still learning. and now, we are like strangers. thing become awkward. the truth is I couldn't even look you in the eyes and not having breakdown issue. if i could ask, would you rather be with people you're not comfortable with or be without them and things got awkward? I hope things get better soon. xx
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