things i wish i wrote (again)

you just don't get it. you're so beautiful that you even make trees blush, people say its autumn because they had to call it something

you mountain plagued with flowers you cliche coming home party you birthday cake full of yesterday you van gogh chemtrail painting

how many beautiful things have we ruined by deciding to write about them

I love you in every thought in every word in every thing I attempt to do

I will love you in every way you never asked me to but I'm convinced you need anyway

i know i hurt and i'm difficult to handle but know that i love you and i will burn all the stars in my galaxy just to light up your world

I used to be the owner of all those things no one understood about you

"You deserve a love so big, it dims the sky and sets fire to the stars…"

wherever it is
wherever you are
i'll love you there

show me how the stars
drop from the sky
and melt in your eyes

if you need me, find me in the blue sea your heart swims in. i will wear your pain, i will be the strength that fights your fears.

"Life is so damn short. For fuck's sake, just do what makes you happy. " --Bill Murray

"You're not lying, are you?"
"I like to think of myself as an honest man," I said.

"I don't know what went wrong, but we were never able to go back to where we started from."

“And it’s hard to hate someone once you understand them.” — Lucy Christoper, Stolen: A Letter to My Captor

Every night I go to bed hoping I would die peacefully in my sleep. If I believed in an interventionist god, this would be my nightly prayer.

i'm afraid i don't have anything beautiful to say

I don't want to be the bandage if the wound is not mine.

Pikit mata (with eyes closed) - How you accept the fact that something against your will must be done.

i know how bad it feels to have the world take you for granted, but i like to think that one day, the universe will bless you back

“In spite of everything, I still believe that people are really good at heart.”
― Anne Frank

i can't help it or turn it off and i don't know what to do with all the care that's left over

everything is distant and out of reach and i'm fed up of reaching all the time

if you fall in love with someone who is hurting be prepared to hurt too

I would like to blame it on alcohol. But it's just me. Stay away. I'll make you bleed if I love you.

"There may be more beautiful times, but this one is ours.”--Sartre

"Don't get mad at others for your bad choice in life"

hold me through the dark and let me love you in the light.

"Every word has consequences. Every silence, too."

"don't compare your bloopers to someone's highlights"

I want to kiss you dizzy, I want you to bring me coffee and watch me drink it wearing nothing but your gaze

i hope you wake up thinking about tomorrow instead of yesterday, i hope you let yourself become something you never thought you could be

"I thought she was probably a little crazy. It was alright if she was. I did not care what I was getting into." -Hemingway

"But she knew this: prayer works."

"I thought she was probably a little crazy. It was alright if she was. I did not care what I was getting into." -Hemingway

i could love you here, quietly, until there are no days left.

I wanna put my face in the crook of your neck and go back to sleep

i'm a total wreck but i'll listen to every word you say and understand the things you can't talk about and i will never make you feel small

i'm still learning how to let go of everything that doesn't need me

i will love all of you, i will love you where it hurts and it's okay if some days that's everywhere

i'm sorry for the way it gets bad every time it starts to get better but i promise one day you'll wake up and it'll all be so beautiful

Slip into my dream and let's go for a ride. Anywhere.

she says there are constellations inside her but she is being modest
everyone knows she is
a whole goddamn universe

Don't give up on what we are trying to do; don't count the miles, count the 'I love you's.

I got a little brokenness
and I need a sweet caress
cause underneath this loneliness
is a whole lotta love

"He could beat anything, he thought, because no thing could hurt him if he did not care." -Hemingway

'attachment is the root of all suffering'

actually pretty impressed at how timing worked out for me finally

you were gold and i always knew you would be but the rest of the world was colorblind and that was never your fault

be gentle with me today
the universe fell on my knee
and scraped the skin raw
star-arrows shot through my heart
on their way somewhere else

be gentle with me today
I feel the pressure of
seven suns, no
seven times seventy
building up inside me
I have no release valve
no seams

be gentle with me today
the sadness is a python
wrapping around my chest
and slithering into my mouth
I can barely breathe

be gentle with me today
I mean it

If you could hold me today for a little while it would make things better
If you could wrap your voice around me now it would be alright

I don't know what you need today but
my hands are soft
my heart is soft
I am soft
not hard
not rough
not harsh
I am a cloud of feathers

source

Maybe it’s okay that you don’t know what’s going to happen. Maybe you should stop predicting and controlling & enjoy each moment as it comes

“One of the greatest tragedies in life is to lose your own sense of self and accept the version of you that is expected by everyone else.”

firm believer in doing whatever you want in this world as long as it's not damaging to another's existence

maybe, I wasn't ready for you back then, too fragile, too tame. yes maybe, I needed another lifetime to prepare myself for the impact of you

i want you to be mine selfishly, thoughtlessly, mine. because how can you be just friends with someone who you want to kiss all the time?

aye if we date and break up u gotta unlearn all the cool shit i put u onto. you gotta go back to being lame.

there's no such thing as love that doesn't leave a mark

A woman said something to me yesterday that changed my view. She said, "Of course it's scary. That's how you know it's worth doing."

“Repeat after me: 

I am not a problem to be solved. 

Repeat after me: I am worthy, I am neither the mistake nor the punishment.”

I get that we are all sinners which means we're all fucked up. What doesn't make sense is to be condemned for something we're all in on.

i love conversations that just flow so well without struggling for a subject

when you wanna break out of the same old

Don't waste your time with the bad. Live with the good.

It may not look like much but it's our little corner of the world.