i hate it when i'm being like an arse.
i always have some point where i get too close with people,
and days/months later decide to slipped away.
most of the times with reasons,
               sometimes not.

it freakin terrified me,
how ignorant and selfish I could be.

i'm sorry.

but saying sorry won't change anything, right?
right.

you can hate me though,
i won't blame you,
i can't blame you.

this is who am i supposed to be.
no matter how hard i was trying to make amend,
or to make it right,
i always ended up slipping away from my own grasp.