stupid poems

I'm trying really hard to not let today affected me
I'm trying really hard to not let it gets me
I'm trying really hard to skipped the day
I'm trying really hard to not let my fingers,
                                    make their own way
                                                       to text you,
                                                               or call you,
                                                                        especially
                                                                                for today
I'm trying really hard to not think about you..

but

I do
      I do
            I do
                  I do
                        I do
                           but forgive me,
                                forgive me to passed this year,
                                      for the first time since forever.