happy 21th, cintia :D

Happy birthday to my dearest best friend,

My closest things to call as sister

Annyeong, unnie! You just turn 21 today. that’s right, I’m writing a letter for you. Did I just turn into seohyun? Kekekeke I hope you feel happier with your new age. It does look good on you.

You know, I hope and pray a lotz of things for you, especially today.

Before I get into it,

Do you recalling us being stranger? When there was still no “us”? It was, unbelievably, 5 years ago. Correct me if I were wrong. We were just bunch of innocent kids. You don’t need to correct me this time. That’s right, I was - - too - - once an innocent girl. Doesn’t mean now I don’t. we are a little girl deep inside our hearts.

Do you remember when we start to learn our names? I still called you as Cintia by then. We just turn sixteenth. We had no idea how was life gonna treat us. We had no idea if we would be the best buddies. We had no idea if we’re gonna graduate and separate at the same time, well we obviously knew it eventually, but we had no idea if we’re still together until today.

Do you remember when I was a mess? When I didn’t got accepted and my world was crumbling down. You were there. You comforted me. You always try to be a bigger person. You know, I am no good to say what I want to say. I was just pushing people away, shutting down, and hopping one day they’ll understand. Maybe we kind of share the same things at this category, but I’m the worst at this kind of things. Do you remember when you got hurt because I shut you out? And it settled, by that day, I’ll never try to shut you out again. Because I can’t stand to watch you get mad at me, nor hurt because of me. Thousands of angels would come down to earth and cry along with your pool of sadness. And they’ll slap me on the face until I pull myself together again.

One thing I believe, I did have a good feel about you for taking a big part of my life. I still do. When I thought about it, we didn’t share the same interest at all since day one. I wasn’t the one who came to you and talk about popular guys on our school. I didn’t have anything in mind. My life is pretty boring before I have you, anthea, and revy. I’m pretty boring person. And then you teach me to embrace it with an open door. I want to learn what you like so we have mutually in common interest things besides our personality. And you guys are the ones who pushed me into the new world, which I never regret. Those 3 years, I already had the time of my life.

And 5 years later, how fast time flies by really amazed us.

We are just kids who desperately try to find our path in life. Trying to fit in. Maybe some of people on our age already have plans since they were born. We have that too for once, or twice. But as long time goes by, we change our directions. The goals that we reserved may change as we live. We don’t need to worry about it, but we often worry about it, we worry where life will lead us to. We just have to live to the fullest, day by day. We usually talked about our major, most of time we feel like “if I have one more chance, I’ll try harder, I’ll get what I want.” Maybe for now, we really don’t know what’s reasons behind all ofthis, but someday, we will get our answers. Nothing’s coincidence. Nothing’s in vein.

And in this long journey, I’m so grateful that you are stay by my side.

You are the first person who I come for, knowing you will never judge me. Or think of me any less. That you are my person. No matter how undeserved I am to be loved. You are still there. that’s why when a boy took you for granted, all I wanna do is come to him. Punch him on the face. Kick him on the nuts. Better yet, I’m going to run on him with a truck. I want to lecture him that he really missed great things. It’s totally their loss if they were letting you go.

I want to be there until the very end, when you are with your-soon-to-be-husband. and tell him a lot of silly things that you've done. Even by then I won’t remember it clearly. I’ll find a way to tell him. I’ll tell him that he’s the luckiest man on earth. That he has a woman who is capable of lots of things. A woman that ready to give her all to her family. I’ll tell him how much you love a cat, so if someday you bring a cat after some shopping routine, he won’t be so surprised. I’m sure he’ll be pleased to have you on his side. and if he hurts you, I’ll hunt him down and murder him with my bare hands. without leaving any evidence. So yeah, I got your back. *sharping my knife*

I won’t write you another letter any day sooner. So, keep this with all your heart. I can’t handle my own lame-ness.

I love you as my family. If you have anything in your mind that bother you, please, come to me. You know where I lived, my number hasn't change since 3 years, which is good. Even if I can’t help to solve your worried and problem, at least I will stand by you. Holding you while you get through it.

We've already come this far from that long way, I’m grateful for every moment we had. I hope our bond is going stronger than ever. I hope life treats you fair and well. I hope you get more chances to let the world see how amazing person you are. I hope I got a chance to know the man who swept you off your feet. I hope you’ll have really amazing life ahead of you. Let’s keep going forever.

Love,

Xx, N.

P.S. I have this on bahasa version too but it's so lame and cheesy, I could puke on myself. so here it is. happy birthday! and that's my oppa's greeting for you.