"you can't ignore those messages and calls"

"I don't want to talk, I like the quietness"

"no you're not, you are talk active, some friends say so."

"I'll talk if I ever feel comfortable with them, or even better if they made me laugh. but I prefer for remain quiet"

"you like to go out with your best friends."

"only to keep them around and happy, i won't take a risk to lose them with not being able to make time for them"

"you can't do that."

"i can, i can forget about my personal craps with only hearing them laughing or talking."

"then, do it with your new friends."

"that I did."

"but you prefer being with your old friends than the new ones?"

"yes I do."

"I'm feeling happier with my (G)old friends than them"

"you ignore them."

"no I'm not"

"let them in."

"someday I will, if I say so"

"what's make you so scared?"

"I'm not scared"

"ha-ha you are."

"I just don't want that new people know my flaws and they’re gonna turn their back because of that and start to judging me."

"there you go."

"so I know some people who knows me without judging me, and I better off without new people who think they know me but they actually don't"

"stahp it, you can't spend the rest of your life ignoring new people."

"I'm not ignoring them, I'm just happy without worrying if someone new is gonna stab my back"

"you gotta make some new friends."

"I am, but I know my happy place, who is my real friends, and I've been saving time only for them"

"yes you are, but do they know the REAL you?"

"maybe they don't know something that I've been keeping inside, but sure they know me well."

"what make you sure?"

"they've been there since the very first day, they know about my flaws, my sensitive side, my dark times, my bad days, I trust them enough to let them in a little bit closer."

"but do they still don't know about that little secret?"

"no one does"

"you used to make some close-new-friends easily"

"yeah, before they leave me, they were sick off me"

"no they don't."

"they do, if they don't, they won't leave at the first place"

"you can't think everyone is gonna leave you."

"they will, I can't imagine. too scared to lose more."

"you can't walk away from subjects that makes you worry or either worse, anxiety."

"I just want to be happy."

"are being in tumblr all day, reblogging your celebrity crush, tv shows, listening to music, chatting with close friends make you happy?"

"sure, they did."

"do you really happy?"

"yeah.....at least I think I was, I am, but not fully happy."

"then find something that makes you fully happy"

"I don't know if something will make me happier than I ever was."

"you gotta find them."

"find what?"

"you've heard them before."

"what are they?"

"love and passion"

"yeah, sure I did heard them."

"find them."

"I will let time fix this ones."